did mask with baby yesterday. hahas was damn fun! we had a great tyme enjoying doing it .. do till baby faxe cramp! wad the... make me laugh lyk hell.. tis few daes he really treat me very good.. only dat.. haiish .. before i move in with hym i already scared dat i will bring problem to hym or cost his family to dislyk me.. todae morning, heared his mom on the fone talking abt me.. was damn sad and yet i only can act lyk nth happen .. wads is going gwron i noe im making hym stress up tis few daes.. wad should i do ? i dunnoe.. wad a failure gerfren im.. i noe he gets more and more xin ku cos wadever i do he dislyk, he dun wan to sae me nor check my fone. but does he noe the moment i saw the sadness on his face, it hurts me alot? i really love hym and i will never leave hym . even i msg melchers,also nth derh. i only have hym in my heart.. it hurts i really hate myself as daes goes by.. i feel dat there is nthh i can do to make hym feel better . in fact i only make hym stress up.. baby im sorry really sorry.. im useless.. i cant do my part as a gerfren .i hate myself at tymes i really feel lyk beating myself.. my heart aches.. im sorry baby..