okae. today had a very bad dream and woke up ending with a terible headache.
HATE THE FEELING~
in the dream, everyone is scolding me saying me pointing their finger at me. and i guess its becos im forbia
tml gort to see my lawyer dunnoe wad he will sae . may god bless dat its someting good ba. the lawyer fe is like so damn expensive. when to lend from someone 1st if nort i realy dunnoe wad to do.
kinda scared sooner or later i might go mad. why i ? im damn scared abt it . why am i ending up like dat. does tis happen when u tend to have very good imagination and being too emotional? i guess so. in dat stupid dream, i feel the pain in my heart. but..
wad is causing the pain when will i have the courage to open up. im scared. im scared dat people will get to understand me and den hurt me. im just too use to keeping to myself . and i do tings with reason when people dun understand .
in the past i read bible and there was tis phrase wher i think all christian surely noe de ''john 3:16" FOR GOD SO LOVE THE WORLD HE GAVE HIS ONE AND ONLY SON.
i wonder. jesus is like a father to the christian and he can give everyting for them. but why cant my mom. is she really dat money-faced till she also not willing to spend money on me just to save me from being restricted . im lost.
dun worry i still here by ur side . see this comment anot its up to u . take good care of yourself . always be by ur side . just a call from u and i will be there for u always . i promise .
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