now der me waiting for ah fong to come find me. till now i still feel pain in me. feel lyk letting my tears roll . NO . i noe i cant. baby dun lyk. but keeping in still hurts. but it seems lyk no matter how many tymes i cried make no differents at all. i dunnoe wads happening to me .. i noe for hym i have to learn how to tolerate anyting. but after all, its hard. haiish was i really too spoiled? i dunnoe. but i noe i have to learn how to tolerate anyting for hym.. cos i love hym. haiish. the pain just wont go awae. wad should i do ? i only noe im stressed up. OMG SHIT. my tears roll dwn. i cant hold anmore. i got to learn how to hold bac. for his sake. jiayou!!!!