hmmm.. now derh me is at hm in my mom room looking after my brother. looking at my brother i feel lyk he seems to be lyk wad i've been thru when i was young but of course better.. he dint have to go thru dat much of pain i did.. true enugh i was at tymes kiinda envy hym but i tell myself dat everyone has a different lyfe and fate.. some lead a better lyfe and have a better fate . but i wasnt the lucky one.. den i suddenly though back when i was trying to get hym to slp .when i was young i once swear dat i wont let hym follow my footstep. but was i able to keep to my words? i doubt so.i start to see another me in hym .. lets talk abt others bahh.. hmm.. kinnda miss my baby.. haiish ,guess he must be playing game sae will call me later also dunnoe wad tyme lo or he fall aslp ler?i feel my heart aches when i tot of hym.. i feel dat im just a burden to hym.but he keep sae dat dats his duty as a boyfren .. but for me i feel im lyk pulling hym down .. i make hym gets into alot of trouble .. im really sorry but i dunnoe wad i can do to make the situation better. i feel so helpless and useless..