tings are going down hills and im gonna BURST soon.

just came bac to baby leonard's hse after sending hym to work. haiish todae he gort guard duty means im going to rot the whole dae thru! OMG !!! but no choice no place to go no money also .. just now baby caught me reading his ex blog. den he sae why nort i also make a blog lyk hers den he can read my updates.. i shook my head and sae dunn wan la . but actually in my heart i tinking i gort but i dun wan to let ue noe cos i wan to write my feelings.. but in the end he found out. cos he gort see the history of the computer and sae dat i when to create one .. haiish still cant escape frm it ! after dat on the way sending hym to mrt station he sae to me dat do i noe why he will lost trust? whose fault? and al i can reply is yesyesyes i noe its my fault .. i mean it.. i dint wan hym to read my blog cos i dun wan later he gets angry and we would fight again. it would sopil the relationship.. dats the lest ting i would wan it to happen .. YAWN~ kinna tired.. once again i whole nite never slp .. play computer nia .. sometimes i really dun noe how to tell hym how i feel . yah i admit at tymes it concern abt me. cos i very sensetive .and wad ever he sae is just playing at tymes . but im just too sensetive dat i couldnt take it.. he dint noe dat i dun get angry but in fact i wad sad and dissappointed.. a little ting he do might just hurt me but he dunnoe .. just have to accpect the fact dat he is lyk dat one.. haiish im having a damn painful headache.. OUCH!!!!!!!! siian later go back have to dace the four walls and dat bastard who loves to haii me.. yesterdae overheared hym tell granda dat he wan to tell my real father dat i alwaes nv go home alwaes go out till next dae morning den wake up . maybe its tyme to describe or discuss abt tis with baby ler.. saw alot of my fren's frenster. all the couple couple picture all so lovely and sweet. den i tot of someting. some frens saw my frenster also sae dat me and leonard very sweet. but in the actual fact are we? yah . at tymes .. i noe he can never change dat attuitude of his. loving to play games and watching tv and in the end get so tired and slp .den when i start getting abit naggy,he will get angry and scold me. but sometyme he will sae he dint scold me at all .just abit louder. he bought the news paper and i saw the news of jamie yeo and the wadso ever DJ broke off i was lyk shock both of them gort another half ler.. they were lyk so loving in the past.. dats when leonard sae '' see nort all loving ppl last long. so see us, if ue carry on tolerate me and we will last '' i was lyk lost of words .. so does it means when the tyme comes when i cant tahan hym i would go crazy or we would just walk our own wae? no one noes the ans..